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What's Your Child's Love Language

11/16/2020

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When I began taking my dating life seriously I read a book “The 5 Love Languages”. It was very eye opening to me this concept that there were ways that I can be manifesting my love to others but because I am not speaking their “language” the manifestations have no meaning.
As I have been watching my son grow I am learning that he himself has a love language.  Truly he expresses and needs all 5:

  1. Words of Affirmation
  2. Quality Time
  3. Receiving Gifts
  4. Acts of Service
  5. Physical Touch
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Words of Affirmation:

I’ve been learning that Words of Affirmation are more than “I love you” it’s applauding him when he does something correct.  It is learning to acknowledge his correct behavior and positive attitude more than correcting and reminding him about things such as “don’t forget to flush the potty”

So often in the day to day functioning of raising him its so easy to point out mistakes and errors.  However, instead I'm choosing to focus more on the things that he accomplishes on his own.  Behavior and actions that show he is growing up and taking responsibility.  There are times that I slip into old patterns and I find myself feeling like I'm doing more correction and reminding but as I always state I'm a work in progress and so is he.  
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Quality Time:

I’m a busy, busy, busy Mommy Bee.  Raising my son, working 2 full-time jobs (in the home and out of the home), working on building a brand,  trying to stay on top of current events, reading for my own growth professional and personally, and a myriad of other tasks that as you know are too numerous to count.  Quality time to me means undivided attention—“All Stop Quit Quiet”.  This has particularly posed a challenge for me because as busy as I am providing my son with undivided attention seemed an impossible task. 

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Over time as I’ve struggled I’ve realized that quality time has different meanings for him.  It’s a closeness—it’s being involved in my activities.  During this quarantine time he had enjoyed popping into my office during my patient visits to say “Hi”.  Putting him in my desk to watch his movies while I work at the computer, cooking together, sometimes just sitting in a chair answering emails while he sits on the floor playing with his trains are the times he needs.  There are times when he does want my undivided attention and he communicates that very well.  I have learned to also communicate when I'm unable to give him my undivided attention and why.  I have also learned to set limits and honoring those limits.  For example--when I'm working on my last 1-2 patients at the end of the work day and he comes into my office I explain that I have to finish and that when I'm done I'll be all his until he gets bored with me and I honor that time.  I leave my phone in with my computer after my last visit and I'm all his. We talk about his day.  We play trains.  We play baby shark (don't ask 😉).   We enjoy each other until he has his fill and is ready to move on to something else.  Sometimes it's 5 min and other times it's 60 min.  Whatever his love tank needs to be topped off and full ⛽️ .  
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Receiving Gifts:

Spoiling my son is something that is so hard not to do.  Every time I see a toy that I think he would enjoy playing with I want to get it for him.  However, my money being funny and my change being strange coupled with memories of him enjoying playing with a toilet paper roll keep my wallet happy.  But I’ve learned to make a big fuss about the most mundane and necessary things.  Underwear, toothbrushes, toothpaste.  Things should be appreciated and respected.  Everything and every moment is a gift.  I find that by elevating the “mundane” my son appreciates all things in life.  I hope this trend stays.  I love that he is appreciative of items but I also know that as he begins to desire and express himself it will be more vital to ensure that even the smallest gestures are appreciated as the big gifts.

Act of Service:

Kids learn by example.  They parrot what they hear quickly becoming little mynah birds; intelligently selecting the naughty words we may utter in an unguarded moment.  I have grown up watching my mother do for others; not only in her role as a nurse practitioner but also as a sister and daughter in her family.  I treat my parents based on how they treated their parents.  I treat others how my parents treated others.  I expect and hope that my son will learn by my example. 

Finding acts of service for my son has caused us to grow closer together.  I am always finding the balance between encouraging him and pushing him to do for himself and learning to overcome frustrations when things to quite go as smoothly and easily as he feels they should.  On the other hand I enjoy doing things for him such as getting him juice before he asks for it sometimes.  Taking his plate into the kitchen for him.  Little things that I know he sees.  Displaying this behavior to my own parents so that it is a normal occurrence that is an expectation rather than an exception.
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Physical Touch:

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I must admit I birthed a snuggle bunny.  He loves to snuggle close to mommy and truth be told I love to snuggle with him.  Physical touch and holding is a love language both he and I share.  It was a hard thing transitioning him out of my bed.  Not only for him but also for myself.  It is true what they say they grow up so fast.  I miss holding him in my arms, smelling his hair, touching his skin, snuggling against him.

Moments of "cuddle time" is one of my favorite times of the day.  Even when I'm running behind in the morning in getting dressed when he asks for "cuddle time" I'm happy to oblige.  Of course I set a timer for a few minutes and let him know that we can only cuddle for a few minutes because otherwise we both would loose track of time.  I find that it gives up both a moment to connect with each other when we feel disconnected and fills up my love tank 🥰.
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On this journey of discovery that he and I are on.  I am learning that there are certain times and instances when I have to tap into which particular language he needs.  For example, when he is trying to over-talk whomever I’m talking to of course it’s a sign that he needs attention but why and what language is not being met.  Sometimes if it’s something he’s proud of and he is looking for words of affirmation; then there are times when he is looking for quality time.  Time for me to stop and provide him with my undivided attention—watching him play for instance.  Other times just my mere presence soothes and helps fill his love tank up.
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As he changes his love language needs will change and I must adapt.  It’s challenging and fun to learn the ways to speak to and fill up his love tank.
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My Glow Up Process

11/10/2020

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Earlier this year I had to let go of a relationship that I had invested my heart and soul into.  It was one of the hardest things I have had to do.  My track record with men is not the best I have the tendency to give my all to someone and am left being in a committed relationship on my own.  At the age of 42, most of my close friends are either in a relationship, married, or divorced.  In my family I am the only cousin who is not married and the only one that has had a child out of wedlock (my mom has been noting that point is a bit of a trigger for me—Geechi see’s all).  While 2020 has not been the year that I anticipated it has in an odd turn of events been the year that I have needed.
2020 has oddly been about introspection and addressing areas of my life that have been consistently ignored.  During this time I have focused on my mantra of “CST—Create Space girl and Thrive”.  During the last 8 months there are 3 things that I am proud of doing:

Self Care

Taking time away from things is hard when you are trying to serve others, build a brand (if you will), or build on a project.  It can feel selfish to care for yourself when you are responsible for so many things and others in your life.  Listening to bloggers and those who are experts on brand building; consistency is important in building an audience and building a social media following and brand. However, I learned this year that I needed to be consistent to myself and carve out consistent time for myself care
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Until I could do that fully and routinely I was no good to anyone and my desire to help others would be nothing but hollow and empty.  I have also been learning that self-care can look like many different things.  My narrow view of selfceare involved a period of significant uninterrupted time to rest, relax, pamper myself.  As a single working mom it’s hard to carve out a big chunk of time to devote to just myself.  Even so when I would carve out that time I would feel guilty and often that I was imposing on others to handle my responsibility.  This resulted in me feeling run down, overwhelmed and depressed.  So often as a women of color I felt I was failing others.  It was a hard realization that in actuality I was failing myself.  So now selfceare looks different than what I envisioned.  Self-care takes the form of journaling, blogging, working out, meditating, reading a book even if it’s only for 2-3 minutes at a time.  I make it a priority to get some time in every day just for myself, my goals, and my dreams.
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Chasing My Dreams

I grew up wanting to be a lot of things.  One passion other than medicine that has been a consistent part of my life is to be an author.  I have written poetry when I was in college (I even performed some for several open mic’s).  It brought me such joy to express myself through that medium.  I wrote a novel when I was in my late 20’s early 30’s that I found satisfying; however never felt confident enough to attempt to even seek publication. 
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After the birth of my son the feeling that I had repressed began to resurface.  I started my blog seeking to write about my experiences as a single working mother as a way to satisfy that passion.  The more I wrote the more I have longed and now have decided to invest in my passion to bring authorship to fruition.  The more I denied the the passion to seek authorship the quieter my voice became for my blog.  I finally decided the listen.  The further I have come in the process my voice has become louder.  Stay turned for my newest project that I can’t wait to announce soon!

Honoring My Worth

Love for another human being can be a beautiful part of life however when lost it can be hurtful.  It’s so easy for someone to tell you they know your worth however when their actions do not match their words it’s time to take another look at the situation.  Personally for me it was a challenge to honor my worth.  I know what I have to offer in any relationship.  I know I am far from perfect. ​The challenge for me was in
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walking away from a situation where I had invested my time, my hopes, and had invested dreams in a situation where I was not valued fully.  In addition to that feeling pressure not from others but from myself to have what I saw others have.  Not in a “Keeping up with the Jonses” manner but more of falling wedded to the dream that I came close to settling for less than what I deserve.  Often we focus on others not valuing our worth that sometimes we neglect that we must value our worth as well and walk away from situations that no longer serve or honor our worth despite the investment of time and feelings.
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