TRIBULATION...As I started my new role as a single working mother I felt alone and an immense pressure to do everything right. Definitely not how I had envisioned my life or even planned my life. I was raised with the idea of a certain order of things and truly thought that I had achieved that vision but circumstances being what they were and human nature being what it is I found myself in a unique position for faith growth.
As a doctor I innately have a very Type A personality. Motherhood only intensified my type A tendencies. The struggle to have it all was (actually still is) intense and seemed to get the better of me (sometimes still does if I'm completely honest). Feeling often that I was not meeting the needs of anyone-my child, my parents, my friends, my patients, my coworkers and of course lastly myself. These feelings took me to a dark place. I’ve cried in the bathroom, had many sleepless nights (not due to the Little One {LO}) but due to worry about meeting and needs and succeeding in goals that I had set for myself and accomplishing the demands of my jobs both in the home and outside the home. I prayed for strength and revelation. As I started praying and meditating I kept hearing “But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.” ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9. STAY TUNED FOR PART 2: REVELATION
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